Story of Amy, Aged 46
Story
Amy
46

#IYDKYK

"The expectation to know everything was all in my head."

September 22, 2022

I. Don’t. Know.

It’s just three words. Three words that are very difficult to say. Three words that can make you feel dumb, unqualified, or otherwise less-than. Like you don’t belong in that meeting or leading that project.

But they can also be incredibly freeing. They can release you from the expectation of perfection, humanize you, and boost your credibility. They give you the time and space you need to formulate the right response - not just the fastest one you can make up.

Saying “I don’t know” can actually make you look smarter than having half an answer on the spot.

As a younger version of myself, as I entered the room as not only a new manager but also one of the few women in the space, the last thing I wanted to be seen as was unworthy of that seat. I wanted to have all the answers, know all the stuff, and be important. I saw being asked a question I didn’t know the answer to as one of the worst things that could happen to me. I was SUPPOSED to know. Right?

As I grew more comfortable in those rooms, those big meetings with important people, I saw that “Let me ask the dev lead/product manager/other experts, and I’ll get back to you on that,” was a perfectly acceptable response. The expectation to know everything was all in my head. It is more important to have the correct information and thought-through strategic opinions. Sometimes, you don’t have all the information at hand. You need to confirm things or consult people with deeper subject matter expertise. So just say that.

That’s the secret to “I don’t know.” That’s not the whole sentence. If you stop with “I don’t know,” then, yeah, maybe you are underqualified for certain things. The rest of the sentence is, “...but I’ll find out.” Because you only know what you know, and you’re not the expert on everything.

And that’s ok.

Once you understand that, you’re free. I say “I don’t know,” A LOT. But it’s always followed by, “but I’ll find out,” or “Let me ask [person] get back to you,” or “Let’s figure this out together.” I feel good about it, too, especially when I’m talking to the more junior members of my team. It sets the example that if I don’t have all the answers, they don’t have to have them either.

So say it with me: “I DON’T KNOW.” 

Now go find out.

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